Thanks to my dearest friends, whom always be my side.
There’s Linda, who is one of my very best friend
There’s Setyo, who is another of my very best friend (who got nickname is Cat)
And there’s Ester,
Dhini
And there’s Irma (-ink) and BS (I called him bro, because his older than me)
And they especially I-ink and BS who always take me out to find another side of the earth ^_^
When I’m feeling blue or down, I usually contact setyo, It’s just because his can online by ym, and available 24-7 every day to hear my sorrow, and who always can make me smile, all his word can make me ‘touch’ again, it’s because he knows every part of my life, especially in my bad times.
And there’s Linda, she is a great ones. She’s really take me, especially when I just want to cry. Her family is mine, and mine is hers. Every time I just want to take a break from “this situation” and I need a real friend who can be my side face to face, I just go to her house and tell everything, even though she has problem on her own, she always make time for me.
Ester, hm….. she knows what it feels.
Dhini, she’s the one who can be my side at office times. When I want to talk, she always make time, even though not face to face, but she wants to hear it.
Iink and BS, hm……….they’re great friends. We always go out for karaoke.
Best friends are always be your side though bad and good times, maybe it’s especially bad times.
Maybe some of you, think I’m to fast to move on. But, maybe in my case, I’m thankful that I get this HURT some much, and it can make me to forget his love more fast than it usually is.
Not forget, but less than before, much less. And I’m feeling for him now just a friend.
Maybe some of you will ask, whether I got mad of him or not,
And the answers, I used to.
I believe karma. What every people do, there’s karma waiting for them. And I believe, there’s karma waiting for him, I’m not curse him, but every action that people take there’s always consequences.
Some of my friends asked me, why I want to accept calls from him? Why I kept reply his sms? Why I kept reply his chatting? Why I kept contact him?
And the answers is, it’s been 6.5 years, those times makes me and him have a strong connections, especially our family. And whether he makes me hurt so much, I just kept can’t annoyed him. I still cares for him, cares as friend.
There used to tell me that I have to feel lucky to have him as my boyfriend. But now, I want to tell this line to that person “Now, who’s the one to be lucky?” “He the one’s to feel lucky to have me as his girlfriend”
And now….I can feel “like” to someone again. I don’t know whether is love or just admire him. All I know, his care and touch can make me believe in love again.
Maybe, I’m just too confident, maybe he always do that to every woman. I don’t know that either.
Once I was believe that Love is not there in my life. I can’t trust people anymore.
But, I hope that someone else out there, who waiting for me to show up in front of him. And who can be my side forever and ever. And whom I can trust again and make me believe there’s love in the world.
